Hi all
There`s this girl, I think she`s gorgeous, I`m very attracted to her
looks, anyway I see her every couple of weeks with her best friend in a
bar/club type of place that my mate and I go to every week.
I`d wanted her for ages, she is gorgeous - the girl of my dreams, there
have been plenty of opportunities for me to introduce myself to her,
when she`s been standing around near me, but I couldn`t do it, too much
to lose.
Anyway this has or had been going on in my head for ages, untill I
couldn`t take it no more, and had to find out if she was interested in
me, so about a month ago, my mate and I were in this bar again and she
was there, at one point in the evening she was standing near me, and I
wanted to say something but it didn`t happen, anyway the bar closed and
I left the place feeling low, because I`d failed again, and went on to a
club and she was there, by now I`d had a few drinks, and was on the
dance floor, dancing near her without actually dancing with her, i
didn`t have the bottle to dance with her, anyway the night wore on
untill finally I thought this is it I`ve gotta do something so I walked
up to her and said "excuse me, I think your gorgeous" she smiled and
said "Thank You" she seemed pleased, anyway I walked away without saying
anything else, quite pleased with her reaction, later that evening I was
sitting down near the dance floor and she was dancing again, so I walked
over to her and started to dance near her, still a little hesitant, at
some point she left the dance floor and sat down, I thought this is my
chance, so I sat down right beside her and said "alright", I started
chatting to her found out her name, where she worked, her age etc, when
she told me she had a boyfriend, who was there also and pointed him out
to me, to which I replied "when you dump him will you consider going out
with me?" she said nothing, anyway she said that she was waiting to
dance to the Spice Girls, and when the dj played the song she abruptly
left and started dancing, whilst she was dancing on the dance floor we
were making eye contact, anyway the song finished and she stopped
dancing, she walked off the dance floor and was standing a few feet away
from me with her friend, I didn`t know what to do, whether I`d been
rejected or what, I felt like an idiot just sitting there so I decided
to leave, as I left I walked over to this girl and said "it was nice
talking too you" she said the same to me and I smiled and said bye!
I felt happy as I left, pleased that I`d finally had the courage to talk
to her, anyway a few weeks past and I kept on thinking should I have
left, should I have asked her out, she had a boyfriend so I couldn`t
but she seemed interested in me, it was going round and round in my
mind I couldn`t stop thinking about her anyway a couple of weeks later I
saw her again I was caught off guard and didn`t know what to say to her,
and ignored her for most of the evening except when she was leaving I
forced myself to make eye contact not knowing if she`d return my
desperate gaze - she did ,I knew I still had strong feelings for her,
the following week I saw her again, this time as she walked in we
acknowledged each other, and it was then that I decided I was going to
try again, anyway I kept trying to make eye contact with her all evening
she was with a group of her friends it was difficult, but I positioned
myself where she could see me, we made eye contact a number of times,
but I couldn`t see my opportunity to talk to her again, anyway the bar
closed again, I felt like shit again, because I`d wanted to get some
things sorted in my head but I didn`t acomplish anything, anyway I went
on to a club, and she was there this time I followed her around untill
she stood still, I`d had a few too drink and walked up to her, a
strange tence silence occured i was standing right in front of her I
didn`t know what to say, but I knew I had to say something, so I blurted
out "why don`t you come home with me" not that I wanted to sleep with
her just like that but thats all I could think of saying, I expected her
to turn me down, she said "I can`t my boyfriend`s over there" I said
"fuck him" without thinking - what I was saying ? and with this I turned
my back and walked a few feet away, and slumped myself against the bar,
she started kissing her boyfriend right in front of me, this guy was
incidently a different guy than the one she`d been going out with the
last time I`d talked to her, she said she`d been going out with him for
7 weeks, anyway feeling a little rejected and gutted I made my way out
at the end of the night, as I was leaving she waved to me and gave me a
huge smile and said bye! she seemed happy, this shocked me a little and
I didn`t know how to take it, I felt as though she wasn`t interested in
me, but the way she smiled gave me hope.
Anyway a few more weeks passed, and the next time I saw her, It aroused
those strong feelings again, I was standing alone at the bar, and she
and her friend walked past me a few times, I tried to ignore her as I
wasn`t sure if she was interested in me or not, anyway I plucked up
enough courage to look at her as she walked past the 4th time, and she
was looking right at me too, she sat down at a table a short distance
away where I could see her I glanced over a few times and we made eye
contact, I didn`t know if i should walk over and talk to her again! or
just take the easy option and leave it, so I left it, I regreted it
though.
Two more weeks past untill I saw her again last night, at first I
ignored her because it had been a whole two weeks since I`d seen her
last, thats a long time, and I hadn`t spoken to her in a month, although
I keep making eye contact with her, anyway later in the evening I gave
in to my feelings and started making eye contact with her, she was with
her boyfriend for much of the night, but at one point she left him and
walked past me slowly, I smiled at her and she swepted her hair back and
smiled at me as she walked past it was a tense moment, I still said
nothing too her another chance went begging, my friend says that she`s
been going forward`s and backwards to her boyfriend lately, which
suggests I might have I chance, I get the feeling that she`s interested,
I want her, but maybe its too late ? I prob won`t see her for two weeks,
I don`t know how I`m going to react when I see her, what should I do ?
Should I ask her out ? What about the boyfriend ? Should I try and
forget about her ?, it will be hard to ignore her Should I say that I
want to be friends with her, which would be fine with me, I just can`t
take it anymore! I`m not interested in any other girls I only want her.
AHHHHHHH!!!!!!
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